well, school got out yesterday...I'm staying with my dad and step-mom cuz there is no room for me at my mom's house! My oldest sister (Amber) and nieces moved in a couple months ago and all of their crap is in my room...and my sister is lazy and won't pick them up/organize it.

So today, I went over there cuz my mom wanted all 4 of us (my other sister (Mikaela) as well, who moved out last week) to clean and organize the house because Amber is moving back into her old room, which Mikaela was living in, my nieces will be living in my room, and then I will be living in the storage room, which used to be Mikaela's room. Didn't get a whole lot done, but I did take down all of my posters, pictures, and art off of my walls, we switched the dresser drawers, and Mikaela took apart her bed and took it to her new apartment.

And of course there were fights and arguments and stress and anger...it seems like whenever I go home for the weekend, there's always some sort of fight either between my two sisters or one of them and my mom (mostly Mikaela). And by the end of the weekend, I realize that my decision to live ON campus (even though my mom's house is like 2 minutes away) was probably the best decision I made! I am so glad I don't live at home anymore...before Amber and nieces moved in and after. Before, Mikaela and mom would fight a lot (not all of the time) because they're so much alike...and sometimes Mikaela would have a bad day at work and take it out on us...also (she still does this), she thinks she can say or do whatever she wants because my mom is saying/doing the same thing! I mean, hello?? That's your MOM...she can do whatever she wants to do, that doesn't mean you can too!! Sometimes I wish when Mikaela has kids, she'll have one that's JUST like her!

When Amber and the girls moved back in, it was all of them living in the house, so I'm sure there was fighting all of the time...plus I have a 3 year old niece and an almost 1 year old niece who get into everything, so there would be NO way for me to study or do homework...

After today, I'm really glad I'm not living at home during spring break, but I know summer is gonna suck...3-4 months living there, plus on an uncomfortable bed/mattress...ugh...

And I know my sisters and I haven't been all that close since we've all grown up, but to me, it feels like we've grown apart even more since I've been going to college...and it's really sad to think that I hate going home/living at home, not because of my mom since we barely fight/argue, but because of my sisters...to me, they just seem to make it worse! And when I try to state my opinion or try to say something to make things better or whatever, I get my head bitten off! "It's none of your business", "Stay out of it!", "I don't need your two cents!", etc...

I just...hate all of this and I hate that this always happens, and I know that my mom hates it too...I just wish that I could tell them how I feel, but I guess they just don't want to hear it...I wish things could be different...